Memories!

Cuddled up on the floor I lie,
Disturbed
Memories they hurt me…
“Memories’ – they lurk like shadows, inseparable,
They fade with the climb of evening,
But even in the darkness they find their way..
Tears they shed, heart they break,
“No more this pain I cry”
Darkness stares into my face,
My soul wounded,
I lie there buried in the grief of my memories

Life

Lonely as I walk
Shadowed by the cloudy sky
Thirsty for those smiles gone by
My soul wet with tears
I close my eyes..

I sneak into the corridors of my thoughts
They scare me,
Things I would never dare, I do
Hopelessness breathes
Suffocation thrives
Death survives.

Afraid, I break into a sprint
Try to escape from the vices of my mind,
Desperate, I fall on my knee
No faith, no desire,
I want to break free…

Just then,

A tiny tot tugs at my dress,
Her healing caress,
Moist lips against my cheek
Her arms locked around my neck
The pain fades away..

Those mysterious eyes,
Unfolds -
Secrets of life and love
Her smile so divine..
Unrelenting
To the wraths of life
Her determination,
Reinforces the very reason of her existence..

She - An angel in disguise,
Makes me realize,
To value this blessing called LIFE..

Life’s like a clock’s pendulum,
You have to survive the extremes,
Sway from one end to the other
But never stop ticking…

How I wish I could Tell, how much you mean to me!

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like the twilight drawing its curtains
To wash away night’s aggressions

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like the first bloom
Causing the nature to boom

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like the soothing chirp of birds
No meaning no words

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like a distant glow of light
In a scary dark night

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like the thirsty earth
After the first showers, getting a new birth

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like the gentle breeze
Pushing the harshness to cease

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like the morning dew
Cuddling a kissing a few

How I wish I could tell,
How much you mean to me
Like the clouds caressing the sky
How I wish the clouds were I..

And yet after this I feel
How much you mean to me Could I ever tell?

Woman - the price you pay!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!
The scream tore through the darkness,
Stopped me in my tracks,
I froze to the deafening silence.

Silhouettes of men against the foggy night
Scrambling for life,
They vanished out of sight

A frame slithered
My heart twitched
Amidst bitter sobbing
Someone shrieked,
“Help me..”

I slashed through the thick bush
My mind totally numb
I felt the blood rush
I tried not to succumb

Shreds of clothes strewn around,
Wriggled on the ground
Was a woman – naked
Wrapped in muck and blood,
Her hands bound with cord..
Her eyes devoid of expression
Her face starved of emotions
Her body writhed in pain,
She was floating in unknown terrain..

She was preyed upon
By ruthless scavengers called men,
Every inch of her body, clawed at
By those hungry vultures
She must have tried hard,
To stave off those beasts
As they raped her again and again..
Every breath of hers
Must have pleaded mercy
But she was ripped apart
With that male thrust..

A scar on her womanhood,
Soul devastated beyond repair
Dreams shattered,
Dignity snatched
She is reduced to nothing,
But a log of wood..

You!!

I remember those days,
When you were mine.
You took the first step,
And made me thine,
You taught me to love,
You taught me to care,
You gave me a reason to breathe and I swear
I still live by your love…..

You swept me off my feet
Gave me arms I could cling to
You were the shade
Weary and weak, I could come to
You stood by my side and I swear
I still live by your love..

But down the line,
I let you down…
Never could I be there for you,
Never did I understand you,
Expectations I dint’ live up to
Disappointments became a part of you..
You parted ways and I swear
I don’t blame you..

Forgive me, can I say?
Believe me when I say –

You are the one and only one……

Thanks for being there, MOM!!

For those unspoken words
Through those swinging moods
During those deepest wounds
Thanks for being there, Mom

For giving an ear
During those growing years
For wiping my tears
Thanks for being there, Mom

For the words of courage
During the pain and its bondage
To calm the rising rage
Thanks for being there, Mom

For the faith so firm
‘Shall not bring thy shame’
That you believe and affirm
Thanks for being there

For the love so abundant
From a person so benevolent
“Thank you, Lord for such a present”
Thanks for being there, Mom.`

Mumbai Local

I run down the building stairs,
hop into the rickshaw -
the beginning of my day!

The roads pretty empty,
The pervasive 'Michael Schumachers' - race through,....
screeeech.... finally halts at the station.

I jump out,the 'kangaroo' active -
take two stairs - reach the bridge.
"Tock - tock - tock"
The sound of my coming,
Thanks to my heels.

"Excuse -me please", "Side - Side - Side"
"Damn, can't you see where you are going?"
"What the heck, you stamped on my feet" ---
Amidst these verbal clutter,
I squeeze my way out of the rat-hole
and manage to surface on the platform..

ANNOUNCEMENT ---"The train arriving on platform No. 3 is slow local for CST".
Everyone gets geared up to enter the battlefield -
yes, it is a war of who manages to make a furrow through
and find a place to park one's bum -----
Bags fastened around the shoulders,
Saree 'pallus' shoved,
Precariously hanging 'dupattas' hog-tied,
The long tresses rolled up into what resembles a "cock's tail"--- e
everyone takes their position...

There the train arrives - in 10 seconds,
there is a massive exodus from the train,
and our "warriors" bundling up into the train.

The train chugs out of the platform.
MELODRAMA ----
"Aat ja (Get inside)", "Madhech kashala ubhi aahe (why are you standing in the way)",
"Majhi saadi soda, Majhi purse soda" (leave my saree, leave my purse),
"Vedich aahe" (you are nuts),
"pressure aa raha hai", (I'm not sure which pressure, they imply, anyways)
pechche se dhakka aa raha hai!!!!
Abuses flying from one section of the compartment to the other...

Suddenly, someone's screaming -
"mere baal", "majhi kes soda" (Leave my hair)
Some fellow-commuter, failing to find support to hold her weight,
is doing a 'Tarzan - Act' - unfortunatelyhanging on to some poor soul's plaited tresses.

Bursts of laughter lighten the tension,
some empathize with the 'lady in pain'.

From some corner of the compartment,
songs pouring out, seasoned with beats & claps,
The marred - by - fate 'Lata Mangeshkars and 'Sunidhi Chauhans' emerge -
their talent at display.

To accompany them,
there is the "Marathi - Bhajan" banddoing their thing with dholaks and bajas.

Your mind can switch between the Bollywood and the Spiritual
Its an "a la carte menu", free of cost - any takers?

Already past 3-4 stations,
still trying to pave my way inside - manage to push through all sizes of arses -
getting a "not-so-needed" massage..

From a mile away,attempts begin at reserving a seat -
"tumhi kothe utarnar" (where would you be getting down)?
Seat dya ho mala (Give me the seat, ok).
After this "Kaun Banega Seatpathy"
the lucky ones - win the much coveted seat.(It's worse than standing for the elections)

SLEEPING BEAUTIES -
Commuters, comfortably ensconced in their seats -
the sleep-deprived or the "perennially struck by anaesthesia" lot"
awaiting their prince-charming" (their respective stations)

You look down - (open-mouthed sleepers)
right there, you can see the pit of one's mouth and count all their 32.
The 'practicing' dentists can really benefit from this.

Some comfortably stretched on someone else's shoulders --
while they sleep like a baby,
the discomforted ones - swear under their breaths.I
it brings out the most disgusting expressions on their faces..

And then others, sway in every possible direction --
guided by their unperturbed sleep.
The gravitational forces are its peak in their case, I guess

Then there is an ongoing parade which happens --
people from diverse demographics,
strutting their wares - fruits, vegetables, dresses, clips, bangles, cosmetics etc etc..
oscillating from one end of the compartment to the other..

You also get a peek into the lives of the not-so fortunate ones --
Small innocent children - begging, sweeping inside the train,
craving for a few morsels of food.

The oldies rigged by the fate of life,
struggling to live the last few breaths of life..

It's a few stops from my destination -
all queue up at the exit.
Well getting off the train is not a concern --
the crowd acts as an escalator,
just stand,they will do the needful...

Expectations

Why do we expect?
When finally we have to regret
Putting yourself in pain
And seeing things in vain

Expectations you are to fulfill
Whether be it against your will
To have someone you love
To their wishes you bow

But when something you want
The answer is ‘you don’t understand’
A voice from the heart
“Why do you withstand”

With hope you walk
About your importance you talk
But reality thrives
You are nowhere in their lives.